So i had a strange dream last night. It was one where i met up with a really old friend of mine J.T. After having that dream I started thinking of my elementary days and realized that i don't remember hardly anything. It's kind of sad when i went through some boxes and found those old journals the teachers made you keep. There was some pretty amazing stuff in there that i don't ever remember even thinking of. Half of my life is just gone.
So for the past two years we've had to do memoirs and i've always wanted to cry in frustration because there's nothing awesome or cute or anything that i can remember. Sure maybe a few here and there but when you can't even remember your fourth grade teacher? is it normal?

Lets be on a happier note now.
We took meemer out to see new moon and i must say going with her made the movie twice as good. Throughout the whole thing we kept cracking jokes and just laughing at the horrible acting and we about died. The most common thing we said was "Strangled by accident" from the SNL parody on Twilight. sure we had a few other lines that had me on the floor but the best one was when Jacob asks what she's (bella) staring at (one of the times he takes his shirt off) and meemer sat there and said "i don't know what are you staring at?" i couldn't stop laughing and the rest of the theater laughed too which i thought was pretty cool. But yeah i really hope to take her to another movie just to laugh like that again.

to blog or not to blog

so i've been ordered to post so here it is.
High school is easy peasy getting great grades and no complaints from anyone. Drivers Ed is almost done and i take my drivers test thursday and my driver is pretty positive we'll all pass.
Life is good.
I have twelve tickets waiting for the opportune moment that all schedules are clear for us to go down to the olympic oval and look forward to that.
I'm not all that excited for christmas because i'm pretty happy with all the things that i have already. i have music i have internet and food. I'm all good.
Life is boring.
I've got a story that has 5,627 views and i've just made another breakthrough with it. I'm always writing new ones. I've been practicing drawing again and breaking ground with that too.
so yeah boring and good. all natural 100% well at least i'm alive right?

I LOST THE GAME!!!

So after much excitement and stress and trauma the anime con finally came!! It was great fun and excitement seeing all the weird people like us.



and the people there are so nice because we're all really alike. You should've seen McDonalds that was right across the street!! We hung out with some friends.



and met some even more random people than us! Even the older adults were awesome!! They were just so random and fun. Including all the people from the "for the love of psycho's" panel! it was great fun and laughter and i got to see some people i haven't seen for a long time.



This game is called ninja, the point is to slap your opponent's hand before they move. usually you're only allowed one move but if you see it coming you can step. This is a pro battle as you can tell, others just were sneaky and slapped them from behind. Next year i plan to be a master. :D !

My friend was a real pain though. She seemed to expect to be driven there and back or picked up and for me to bow to her every wish. By the second day i was already tired of her. So the last day i finally stood up to her and said, "i want to hang out with my sister and her friends too." so after pestering her to leave the show they were doing we went downstairs and played some video games.

One of the people dressed up in a red stiped shirt and beanie and was soon chased by girls down the halls all screaming "I found Waldo!!" then looking through my friend's pics Waldo showed up in the background waving to the camera! that was genius. There were many great costumes and some of the people looked really cool! It was so weird going back to school the next day and being surrounded by NORMAL people!! all my friends were like "It's too normal! Lets go back!" But it was a memorable weekend and i hope to go next year, this time i'm gonna cosplay!!






You are now playing the game,
you cannot win the game,
the point of the game is not to think of the game,
every thirty seconds someone will scream "I lost the game."
making it impossible to win,
good luck.









































I JUST LOST THE GAME!!!

ah the smell of high school

So coming into high school has been fun, so far I'm just treading water and staying above all the homework. I've started making new friends and being really friendly. Some additions to our table are Nat, Flav and Meesh. They're really funny and i enjoy being around them. Flav is very much like my sister's friend and i get along pretty well with her; she's an amazing artist and writer. Nat is pretty much a stretch to our similarities but we get along really well and her art is beyond amazing and almost at the professional level. Meesh is a huge manga and library fan, everyday at lunch you can usually find her in the library with a book in hand. Most of my teachers are pretty fun and exciting with a few exceptions. My worst classes are world civ and computer tech because they are so boring and i have to make a great effort to stay awake. I love love love my orchestra class, they are just so random and fun and enjoy staying loose. this year we have 8 cellists!! The music is hard but not unattainable. so far things are going well.

We had our sophomore elections just this week and guess who ran!

not me!

my friend Nat decided she wanted to run for vp. So i said i would join her and be in her skit and vote and be a committee member. Well i couldn't help her with her posters and felt really bad when i found out they'd been at it until 2 in the morning. She seemed to have a really good skit idea considering they could be only 45 seconds i was a little worried. Well when i come to school the day after our break i see lots of people with shirts for their candidates and i become a little freaked that i should've had one for Nat (i'm such a bad member). I look up whether it's A day or B day and see the elections are tomorrow. It slips my mind to tell it to our runner. So on the glorious Wednesday I'm sitting in English with Nat when an announcement came on asking for all the candidates and their committee managers. Nat gets up to leave and i ask if i should go too. She grabs me and drags me along. So we get to our auditorium and sit for a bit and panic because we see people with props and realize our skits are that day! So with just me and Nat she thinks up a genius plan of singing a song/poem. So i, for one, suddenly becoming the campaign manager and having to go up and ask people to nominate Nat as our vp in front of our whole sophomore class and with no skit or speech planned, am freaking out. Nat pretty much took over though and dragged me along. We got up there to the mic and sang her song and dance to no music. I asked my friends later how we were and they kept saying i looked really happy so i guess thats really good. I just tried to enjoy myself and be funny and hyper like i had been earlier. We pulled through with some crowd help and sat back down with a sigh of relief. It was a cool experience to help her out. I liked watching the other skits and laughed and cheered for other people who didn't seem very popular. Doing all this made me think of maybe running next year against Nat just for fun, Flav says she might too. I just laugh when i think back to lunch afterwards, Nat was dead and i was dead, nerves can really make you tired!

drama drama drama and a jerk

it's been a while!
So we just got back from the county fair! woot free food! I've found that the photography contests looks really tempting and i'm liking my moms idea of a camera for Christmas.
The all important monument in teen life...
High School.
I'm kinda freaked out. We've got orientation tomorrow early in the morning. I know i have nothing to worry about except the tons of homework the large campus and the confusing "small schools" that make no sense whatsoever. I am VERY excited about the orchestra program with the amazing teacher and more than two cellos. I'm nervous because my best friend is going to clearfield instead (i wish i was too, it has WAY more opportunities) and that there are people at syracuse that i don't get along with. The lockers are also a complete rip-off. But i'm also excited. I'm just a worry wart.
now for man drama.
You remember when you kinda wanted a boyfriend and thought up "the perfect guy" and hardly anybody would fit in that little square. I'm comfortable with guys; mostly wanting to become good friends before going into a romantic relationship. Yeah i've dated before but the guys were people i didn't like in that way. Well i mostly get the nerds and i'm happy that at least someone finds me attractive. until that guy turns out kinda stalkerish. He was in my seventh period (the one with all guys) and was mostly the wimp of the class so i stood up for him. i said hi and made a nice conversation. He was one of the tops students and i grouped with him a lot cause he wasn't one of the idiots and i could handle his personality. I realized that he started to get friendlier and friendlier and just pushed it out of my mind. It started irritating me that he would guard my books cause Chris would steal them and my friend Jim liked to look at what i was reading. He'd walk me to my locker and any classes i needed to go to after seventh. He just kept irritating me more and more. I didn't need any protecting and i especially didn't need it from him when i was defending him more than he could himself. He got me a nice valentines gift after valentines day cause i was sick the actual day. He finally asked me out before school ended and i said that i couldn't not until i was sixteen. I thought he took it fine but apparently not. I hung out with a few friends on tuesday, doing some sports and stuff. We went back to my house and hung out. well the other friend left and Jim and i talked outside for a bit. He thought that i was going out with Derek (the stalkerish dude). guess why. Apparently when he talked to Derek on his Xbox live he said that we were going out. This was the last straw. not only had he said this behind my back to Jim but to most of the people in seventh period. He also decided that he was going to follow me at lagoon on the Coke's lagoon day. After a whole blissful summer without a puppy dog following at my heels i was not happy to get it back. So after i got this bit of info from Jim and an email from Derek i decided i was going to tell him off. He'll probably still come to lagoon but i was really pissed that he was saying we were going out. I only thought of him as a friend, an annoying friend but just someone i knew. I never agreed to date him and i never will not after what he's been saying. i just hope lagoon day will go smoothly and i won't start yelling at him.
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ahg why do i feel so guilty! i finally told him what i thought and he makes it sound so bad! He planned his whole weekend around it! I don't know if he's still coming and jim says if i let him come then i'm just reversing everything i just did. Dang it mom and dad why'd you give me such a huge guilt bone?? i feel so bad about it!

my turn!

now these are my pics from san fran
key word there is my; meaning i took them so don't expect much! i aint no photographer for sure!

this is at alcatraz (above)

view from alcatraz (above)

creepy pic of the jail bars at alcatraz (above)

the boat is leaving us!! jk these are the gardens down the side of alcatraz along with the mill thingy. at alcatraz (above)

it's coming! or we're going, this is alcatraz from the boat. ignore the man in the corner (above)

a juggler at the pier bouncing a ball on his knee. he was really funny. (above)

once again my photo genius! uhh this is dad realizing the sidewalk ran away. (above)

and he's down for the count! (above) this is at the antique arcade place that my mom insisted to go to. the below is for alison and for my friends i couldn't resist. (below) *see what the belly dancer does on ho day off*


yes he is shirtless and no he is not falling over, he is spinning on his bike. it was a competition between the skateboarders *boring* and the bmx peoplez. so sue me he was cute! (above)

surprise! your on camera, teehee. this is alison and her parents squinting at the menu at the yummy mexi resturant we went to. (above)

this is just to mess with your senses! not really i'm just to lazy to sit here and figure out how to turn it around (above and below). (above) one of the buildings in china town. (below) a church just out of china town... we were waiting for our trolly/bus/cable car.


one of the only pictures of the cable car museum that turned out well. these are the cables that run the cars. there's little signs that tell you what streets they run under but they didn't show up.(above)
now for the festival!


peoplez of my culture all jumbled together in the costume part of the parade. (both above)

i was being run over and pounded on by the mallets for the drums. i wanted a picture to place on my tombstone. (above)

the cute kiddies that were placed under torture and public humiliation to march in the parade. must've been one of the many day cares or elementary. (above)

the yummy shaved ice that saved our lives. (above) it was probably from one of the many stalls (below)


at this point i just lied down and died. the fans were pretty though! (above)

and that was our trip from my two disposable camera's. i ran out of film really quick but i was happy i had the chance to mark my own memories. thanks mom! this trip was really fun but there's always more to see and i really hope we can visit again soon. besides we have an awesome person who i want to see again *cough* alison *cough*. teehee hope you enjoyed my lovely pictures i'm open anytime. i will have business cards soon! teehee just kidding i suck at pictures. i'm rambling by the way so you can totally stop reading now. unless you actually enjoy listening to me which is really strange and means you either need a life or a vacation. whichever comes first. anyway feel free to comment! gah! spell check isn't working! grr. i will eat it later. for now you have to deal with my extremely bad spelling. this is what happens when you use big words like ectoplasmic goo.

friends stink

Well it's not Jr. High without all the drama right? anyway it's almost common knowledge that i have no time in my life to have fun with my friends. It's my life and i'm used to it. I actually had a lot of time before track started. After i joined though my time has been strained. One of my best friends said she would join with me. I was just overjoyed about it. None of my friends have ever been involved in track. Then she just changed her mind. I wasn't very surprised if she had actually gone to the practice then she probably would've given up anyway. So i told her that it was unfortunate that she had changed her mind and i really wished she could've joined. Well a couple of weeks passed with hard work and a lot of pain. i was crazy stressed what with homework and track and soccer and cello. I figured, hey i can still talk with my friends at lunch and on msm messenger. and i did. just not with my "best" friend. She went off with the other group of our friends. I said well alright then i guess that's okay i'll just play cards with my other friends. well now that track's over i thought Yahoo! i got time to get back with Kristin and become friends again. well i guess i don't matter anymore she'd prefer to hang out with our other friends than me. she did in fact tell me to stay away from her when she's hanging out with them. yeah way to make a girl feel loved and included right?

In other news. i just found out that my private cello tutor has spinal meningitis. fuuun. i feel sorry for her and wish her the best.

i'll probably end up editing this later cause i was kind of in a rush.

babysitting fun

When spring break is getting dull the best thing to do is well why not go see Wicked?! yeah i wish. instead though i got to do something funner than sitting on my butt for hours. We got to babysit the funnest cousins ever! Harry and chilly/taco/cart and their little bro fussy got to come over and play.
harry made his own character on the wii fit. and patiently waited until he could get to the fun games!
fussy was great. although everyone was worried he'd be well...fussy. Harry was a big help with him too. Chilly/taco/cart was running around and being a little ball of happy sunshine so much so that i only got a picture of the back of his head. It was a great fun day. and i still think i didn't need to be paid. (hint hint meemer) after all it's just a fun day to play! This i must say was the greatest fun i've had all break!

soo
my friend misty had a birthday, we all know how that is. so her lovely family reserved a table or two for us to have a party at a fun center. We rollerskated i kicked every ones butts at Dance Dance Revolution. I even taught Anna how to skate! i take pride in the fact that she even bought a pair of used skates while we were there. i was so happy. of course the fact that she ways at least thrity pounds more than me was a little frightening when she used me to stay upright. but yeah the best party ever. I love skating a lot, especially going fast. the rink was a little small and really crowded but was fun when they were about to close cause it was almost empty. I even had to help my evil arch enemy Krissy skate. So then i go home and Misty's family is really weird, they are very fun. So there was a cake sitting on the counter. Misty's dad picks it up and i catch on to what he's thinking. i enthusiasticly nod yes. So does joscyline. So he goes into the living room and then Misty's mom mouths no not yet. so he goes back in the kitchen and puts it down. Misty takes a laptop down stairs and comes back up by then her dad had chickened out and Joscyline takes the cake and shoves Misty's face in it. Misty shoves back. The one ending up with the most cake on their face is Jos. Misty having almost none. so then i come home and i get attacked by the puppy. I was scratching Izzy when all the sudden the pup knocks the wooden lid to my moms ceder cest down on my head. much pain and now i have a headache. all in a days work right?

Watch the sidewalks!!

For those of you who i haven't gotten to yet guess what!! i got my learners permit for driving wooh who! I enjoy the freedom but there's always a leash of course. The whole fact you have to have a licenced driver thingy kinda sucks cause when i drive with dad he picks at me and I haven't driven with my mom yet but i'm pretty sure she'd be hanging onto the seat holding her breath around corners. I like driving with Bookie thought, she's fun. Dad always offers to let me drive every time i don't have my permit with me though which drives me nuts... It's always fun though. I can't wait to get my licence for real.

In other news there's about nine weeks of school left. we're in the last term starting tuesday! it's kind of scary that next year i'll be going to high school. I'm gonna miss some of my friends but i really look forward to some of my classes that i hope to get in.

in other other news track season is starting up tuesday as well. and so is outdoor soccer. i have two outdoor soccer teams and one of the practices overlap which really sucks and if i have my math right on two days of the week i'll be running four hours a day. That'll whip me right into shape! i just hope i can survive with tons of homework swamping me plus testing plus track plus soccer!! gah! i'm insane! I'm pretty sure my "hollow leg" will show up more often in dinner though. i'll be outside a lot so at least i'll be tan and my hair will be a blonder color! lol. i just hope i can slow down my soda drinking.

i'm so happy it's getting warmer though, it kinda amazes me that one week we were huddled in our coats cursing the cold weather and pretty soon we'll be stripping to shorts and cursing the heat. but it's funny listening to all my teachers warning us not to get spring fever and go all hormonal on them it's really funny.

wish me luck i'll need a lot of it!

soccer troubles

well i now play in Ogden, well should have for at least four games. When they first mentioned the new session for indoor soccer we agreed to play. Now this was awhile ago before i got sick then it hit me, the walking pneumonia as my mom now calls it. anyway i missed three or four games just from being sick. then we all decided that it was just too far to play. so we sent a nice simple text to our manager saying that there was no point to me playing a few games and then that's it. our team hadn't even had practices since I've been sick. all the sudden a few days after we get a really rude reply from the manager saying that it didn't matter that we still needed to pay the $40. if you ask me that's ridiculous. she also made it sound as if i had to be there. after much grumbling and yelling we really had no choice but to pay to stupid lady the stupid money. so today(Saturday) i set my alarm and went to play. i still have a cough and can't run as well as i normally can so i have people yelling at me because I'm not getting to the ball the manager being absolutely ridiculously rude to my parents and i can't breathe at all. i start panicking because my coach isn't listening to me and I'm about to throw up and i seriously can't breathe. lets just say i barely made it to the bathroom in time... I got so stressed because i feel like i let my team down because i can't run i can't stay in for very long and we only had two subs. so combined with the sick and the screaming i feel like it was the worst game ever. we lost too by the way. wise and smart mom says just let it roll off my back and heal up as soon as i can. i just need training, conditioning or something.

dun dun dun! hamster hunt! and snowboarding!!

my lovely black, fuzzy, cute hamster decided it didn't want to stay in it's lovely cage Friday night. We had some guests that night, BJ and family came over and we had a lot of fun talking and catching up with the funniest family ever. (except maybe meemer and them.)
anyway i got up early, early to get ready to go to embarrass myself on the slopes of beaver mountain ski resort. Well as i am rushing, half asleep to get ready for the long drive and fun day, i look into Kuma's cage. No hamster. Well that was one way to wake me right up. We looked my room over but no black fuzz ball. great. We left anyway, dad promising to look for her.

We got to McDonald's for yummy first breakfast and transferred cars and drivers, Bitt took us to her apartment for a little while as she grabbed some much needed items. We left and arrive with time to spare. (Had to skip second breakfast, we were on the road. I was ravenous for lunch by the time it rolled around.) So we rented boards, looking like we knew what we were doing (yeah right) and fooled around for about two hours until our lessons started. We had a nice instructor (very strong too) who taught us very well and by around one-thirty i was flying down the slope, only on my butt or face about 30% of the time.
And now i'm paying for it, I took two hard face plants, i think i pulled a couple arm muscles and i know i bruised my knees really bad. But it was fun, tai and i loved hanging out with our almost long lost cousin and her boyfriend (woo hoo! lol) even if we had to skip second breakfast and tea time.
We came home, played Indiana Jones, only to teach her how so she could relay the info to our aunt, and showed off on guitar hero, and played snowboarding for the wii fit. yeah ironic isn't it.

So back to missing hamster. After our cousin left we, tai and i, were completely sucked dry of all energy. I get really annoyed with our certain new puppy who is barking up a storm at the bottom of the stairs. the entrance to the entrance of my new room. I resort to the last resort, which is use our shiba's keen hunting sense for my hamster to find it. (don't put her in the hamster ball while kimiko's around) So i let the dog into the basement and shut the door behind me, tai following close behind, my backup of course. So our lovely devil dog sticks her nose into the mattresses in the corner then goes to the middle of the room where there's a pile of confetti and garbage. She runs to the door and then back to the mattresses. hmmmm. hinting much? So i pull apart and ta DA! a fuzz ball looking like a ninja hanging from both mattresses. I tell tai to grab the flashlight in my nightstand and watch out for traps-err obstacles in my room. The little thing moves and i shout for her to get dad instead. she hands me the flashlight and runs up to get our dad. He comes down, moves some stuff and turns out to be hardly any help at all. (sorry dad, but thanks for moving stuff!) i catch my hamster after two attempts in which the hamster demonstrated amazing Houdini skills. and run to the cage and box tape the lid shut. mission accomplished, kimiko and izzy get a treat and we're all happy. yeah right. Kimiko still sits and barks at the bottom of the stairs, probably yelling at us for taking away her second supper.

WARNING!!!!!

THIS IS NOT MEANT TO MAKE ANYONE FEEL GUILTY I AM SIMPLY RAMBLING AND GIVING MY OPINION. PLEASE DO NOT TAKE ME SERIOUSLY!! DO NOT CONTINUE IF YOU DON'T WANT MY COMPLAINING RIGHT NOW.


































I'm tired. of school of soccer of everything. I don't think i'll be able to pull myself out of the hole i've made of my english grade so i will no longer sit next to the hunk (more on that later, maybe) and be kicked out of the class.
I didn't want to play soccer this year to tell the truth... but don't get me wrong, i am happy that i did; i made great friends with tonia and a couple others. I don't know if i'll be playing next year, i'm tired of coming home with hurting and sore ankles and legs. I'm tired of feeling inferior and out of place.
I'm tired of nobody doing anything at home. I can't cook, i don't know how never have known. So instead i try to clean, but then i have homework, cello practice, soccer and other family members to deal with. i have no time and my frustration's probably hitting our snow piled roof.
And i want a break, i want to go and learn how to snowboard. But if mom is going to worry about it nevermind. I want to spend time with my amazing cousin we hardly see. I want the school year to end and soccer to be outdoors again. I don't like playing indoor where i feel even worse on the skill level.
I just want to sleep for a week and never get up.
But i can't. I need to help out more and i need to do homework and i need to practice cello and i need to be there for my team. I need to seperate from myself and just do it. lol NIKE...
Then again, easier said than done.

a tribute to the great.

Green Acres is the place to be....
yeah for all you old people this is not the tv show. I'm talking about the elementary school i went to. When most people in my current Jr. High ask me what school i went to they usually have no idea what i'm talking about.
Anyway i really miss this school. It really is the greatest elementary school around. Even when you remember all the really bad days it was still the greatest school ever. I still email my old teacher.
Almost all of us already know that the curriculum is getting hard for each grade. But i don't feel like i'm behind at all. I almost feel like i'm ahead so i just want to say, even though she doesn't read this, Mrs. Orton was the best teacher ever.