i've been feeling very selfish lately.
I want my cello, i miss being able to play at home everyday. it's a really good way to calm myself down.
I want to learn piano, i can only play songs off my iPod and it's getting boring.
I want to score some goals; this i should be more selfish about, i totally gave the ball away last game and i really could've made it.
I want to be really good at cello, i felt like i was being treated like a seventh grader today, like trying to find the harmonics on my cello, we took extra time just for me and it made me feel bad.
I want some help around the house, i know mom's got school and is really stressed already but i could still use some help.
I want to be done with my honors classes, i don't want to rush at midterms or the terms i just want to be through with it.
I want to succeed in my honors classes, no matter how much i make fun of my mom's stressing over her grades i know that it's best.
I want to talk to my mom more, i always feel like she's left out when we have time to talk.
I want time, simple as that, i've got too much going on.
I want my brain back, please if you find it please return...
I want kristen to know me better, she's my best friend yet i feel like we're breaking apart.
i want to be a musical genius, i want to be able to put my feelings down in notes and play it.
i want school to be over, I'm tired of this already, i get so tired of routine.
I want to write a book, to find an idea that can actually turn into a book, you'd be surprised at how hard this is.
I think i'm almost done...
I want chelsea to stop being a snob, it's very hard to have a soccer team when i always am getting lectured and yelled at but when i ask nicely they don't listen to me.
I want someone to notice my hard times and care, i don't just want a pat on the back and them to say "stiffen up that upper lip" i want them to help me work through it.
I want homework to be simple.
I want good music.
Ok i'm done rambling now.
2 comments:
Wow Boo, you do have a lot going on. You have so much tallent and so little time it seems. maybe there is a way to space it out a little better. Some way to leave you a little bit of me time, so you can relax in a bath, or read a few chapters of a book, cuddle up with your parents for a movie on the couch. No matter what, we all love you and know you are gifted in so many ways, you make us very proud. Sometimes we as adults forget how stressful being a kid can be, thanks for reminding me, I should be a bit easier on my students sometimes. Love you.
everybody does need some down time,and i know that you have been working hard. you have christmas break soon, and you can just goof off and have fun.
honors classes do come and go, but what you learn, how to disciplin yourself is what you will take with you. i promise that when you are done with this school year, you will be amazed at what you can do. and it is okay to be busy doing a lot of things, because then you don't have any regrets!
and it is okay to feel bad every now and again. it's okay to need hugs, or to talk. we all do!
and here's my big fat hug to you.
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